Who Are You?

I remember when I was a teenager in youth group. When summer would come around I knew youth camp was soon to follow. Those times in my life were very important to me. They laid the foundation of my faith and walk with God. During those times the youth leaders and Youth Pastor taught me what my faith and walk should mean. They also taught me what not to do. I also discovered a few things at camp. One year I asked the Holy Spirit for my prayer language (Speaking in tongues). Another year I recieved a few more gifts (intersession, discernment) because I was open to recieve. I wanted whatever God had for me. It was a time where everything was clear. No distractions, no TV, no internet, no cell phones. Hard to imagine right? I just had my Bible, prayer time, and worship. Not to mention great services twice a day. It was an awesome time in my life. But it only lasted for a week. When I got home the high would only last for a few weeks. Why? Because I got back into my old rut.

Once I graduated high school and moved out of my parents house I started to slack on going to church. Pretty soon I wasn't going at all. I would go here and there (Christmas and Easter mostly), but nothing real steady. Until I met my wife. When I met her she got me back to church, but it wasn't the same. For a long time it felt like a chore to go. I wanted to sleep in on Sunday morning, but she forced me to go. Everyone goes through a time in thier lives where they have to do some soul search and find out who they are outside of mom and dads protection bubble. Even though I was married and going to church I was still searching for something. It took a very serious situation to snap me back and realize the error of my ways.

Looking back on who I was I was not a very nice person. Looking back I was mean, moody, didn't sleep well, bitter, unforgiving, and ultimately didn't treat my wife with the respect, compassion. and appreciation she so rightly deserved. Needless to say my soul searching days are over. I know who I am and I am getting back to the place I was before I decided to "try it on my own". We all know that doesn't work. God needs to be the center of your life. Take it from me, make Him the center and everything else will be ok. Will your journey on the road of life be easy? No, but with God's help it will be better. If you let God lead instead of you leading things will be better. God will take the hits for you.

"(28) Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. (29) Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. (30) For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light" - Matthew 11:28-30 (NKJ)

Until next time!

B